ffffound.

art.

red rock amphitheater.

i want to see the avetts HERE in september.

must own!

bit torrentzzzzzzzz

ive spent yesterday and today downloading/watching movies....
thus far i have watched

valentines day.... didnt hate it.....

percy jackson and the olympians: the lightening thief.... it was really good....

and its complicated, hated it EXCEPT for when john krazinski gets stoned.... actually all the john krazinski parts were good.

i also have the lovely bones, brief interviews with hideous men, whip it, and where the wild things are downloading as i type.

this may be a new thing i do.

little known fact....

this guy was lancelots voice in shrek the 3rd.

my head is reeeeeeeling.

job hunting.

home missing.

baby shower avoiding.
frightened rabbit.... ing.
so much stuff in my head.
need to turn the damn thing OFF.

truth.

el oh vee eeeeeeee.

modern leper!

it was valentines day two and a half hours ago.

cupcakes. <--- yep that sums it up. whirlwind work day, we closed an hour early yay for me!

got a text from will asking for bff valentine hang time... so we did.
consisted of listening to NEW! shstl in mi carro for an hour. life completed.
sharing cupcakes of the literal sense.
hitting up the old casino for some game time. LOSING. :(
facebooking tuff.
getting called a bitch 10 times (we had a count going ... hes never done that before.)
and staying up till 2am, just me and wibb having a grand ol time.

i had a valentine this year :)

my two bff's are definitely better than anyone else's.

slowly but surely

ive been checking tickets for ellen every day, and its getting closer to when we want to go!!

wheres rob?

this could be done so much better, but its cute.

not even the hands of God can hold me back from you.

playlists for dayyyys.

remember the ridiculous amount of playlists we would send eachother?

this is what i listen to as of late.

already gone -- kelly clarkson
we're just friends -- wilco

hummingbird -- wilco

good arms vs bad arms -- frightened rabbit
heartless (kanye cover!) -- the fray

white winter hymnal -- fleet foxes
hallelujah -- justin timberlake & matt morris
go away -- matt morris
save you -- matthew perryman jones

samson -- regina spektor

take it back -- she & him

need you now -- lady antebellum
melody -- kate earl
hell no -- sondre lerche

i cant not have avetts....

incomplete & insecure
sanguine

i need a new job.

our tips went from 90 - front of house 10 - back of house to 60 - front of house 25 - back of house 15 - bakers. so i just lost 1/3 of my tips. so i am spending tonight applying to a few new prospects. i steering clear of barista and food service... and taking a new approach... more money, benefits, and paaaaaaaaaaaid vacation.

pray. pray. pray.

theyre just jealous.

fun fact

famous flower of manhattan..... is about regina spektor.

wheres my best friend?

we are being really bad at communicating. this whole using a blog thing isnt really cutting it for me anymore. and both of us being deathly ill probably isnt really helping our cause either.

i have this great fear of us falling out recently. the longer i live over here, and when visits are becoming fewer and farther between the more alone and disconnected i feel from you and my family. i didnt talk to my parents for over a week.... since i left sequim. i cling to the idea of our road trip even though financially its probably the most unrealistic thing i can really do right now. i used to find it hard wrapping my mind around not being friends with jake, because i always felt like no matter how much i disliked him he would always be around, because i would always be close with the family... but i am realizing how that may just be wishful thinking. our friendship ending is just the stake that is the start of the end. my spot at the dinner table will be eventually filled with husbands and wives...

i may just be paranoid cause i dont have much over here, and its really getting to me. its difficult to live only to work, and not being able to afford to go home as much as id like to. plus last night carl mention his, will, and jakes plan for will and karl to marry you and jess so you all are one big happy family.... and i felt soooo left out. like it will actually happen... but still.

youre my best friend. the only one that satisfies that position fully...

the travelocity gnome is in the shop getting his picture taken. ANOTHER celebrity.

make me sanguine, help me genuinely.
kill the doubt that strangles my self worth.
paint the picture that i swore i heard.

spiritless and mean, the ghost that comes between.
i will keep my wits about myself.
disregard directions sent from hell.

when it brings the gleam, longer lasting than me.

oh my love but we are bound to die...
my heart is broke but you wont hear me cry.
oh my love but we are bound to die...

my heart is broke but you wont see me.

i like her.

and you have to watch jay z at the end.... cause he is so happy.