worst birthday everrrrrr. ever.

making my list, checking it twice...

avett songs i've seen LIVE; bumbershoot, woodland park, neumos, crystal ballroom nights 1&2, starbucks, & the paramount X2

1. Salina
2. Die die die
3. Cigarettes and Whiskey
4. Distraction #74
5. Never Been Alive
6. Salvation Song
7. Wanted Man
8. Down with the Shine
9. Shame
10. Nothin' Short of Thankful
11. How I Got to Memphis
12. Ballad of Love and Hate
13. Laundry Room
14. Walking for You
15. Pretend Love
16. Love Like the Movies
17. More of You
18. Go to Sleep
19. Murder in the City
20. Kickdrum Heart

21. Paranoia B flat major
22. The Perfect Space
23. I and Love and You
24. Matrimony
25. Pretty Girl From Chile
26. Colorshow
27. At the Beach
28. St. Joseph's
29. Will You Return
30. Talk on Indolence
31. Pretty Girl from Feltre
32. When I Drink
33. Colorshow
34. The Fall
35. 40 East
36. Late in Life
37. Bella Donna
38. Solomon
39. I Killed Sally's Lover
40. Standing with You
41. Greatest Sum
42. Signs
43. All My Mistakes
44. Gimme a Kiss
45. Skin & Bones
46. Tear Down the House

47. Thats How I Got to Memphis

48. My Last Song to Jenny

49. The Offering
50. The Lowering
51. I Would Be Sad
52. Old Joe Clark
53. Head Full of Doubt, Road Full of Promise
54. Pretty Girl from Matthews
55. The New Love Song
56. Till the End of the World Rolls Around

57. And It Spread

58. Denouncing November Blue

59. Tin Man

60. January Wedding

61. Average People

62. Ill with Want

63. SSS

64. Pretty Girl from Cedar Lane

avett whhhhhisky cups. please?

life is ever changing but i will always
find a constant and comfort in your love.

you wanna know what makes life good?

mumford&sons and the avettbros bonnaroo sets streaming on npr.

fell in love again. damn.

33 days!

The Fall - The Avett Brothers feat. G. Love from Joseph Kwon on Vimeo.

cute.

have i mentioned?

how heartbroken i am?

worried and heartbroken.

roll away your stone

it seems that all my bridges have been burned,
but you say that’s exactly how this grace thing works
it’s not the long walk home that will change this heart,
but the welcome i receive with the restart.

more of you

happy birthday becky

read.... set.... LAST WEEK OF KIRKLAND!

monday.... open the store..... train my replacement.... pack... pick up wibb from airport.

tuesday... work a hella long day 9 - 6. ugh.

wednesday... pack some more.... work 2-c.... drive to sequim. eta 12am.
thursday...work at hcc 8-530

friday.... work at hcc 8-530.... drive back to kirkland
saturday... open the store.... go to kim and bens wedding
sunday... my final closing shift as a professional cupcake slinger @ trophy cupcakes and party.....

THEN MOVE BACK TO SEQUIM!!!!

toms birthday

so ive been thinking.

and... as far as food goes...

your mom wants to try and do salmon....

and i think asparagus would be good and easy....

and i was thinking i could make bruschetta.... maybe with or without brie?

and we can have a spread of olives and crackers and other cheeses and maybe salami?

im getting ahead of myself.

holy hell.

i dont ever want to feel like i did today ever again. i could not see straight let alone keep my eyes open.... i was sweating, shaking, and had no color on me whatsoever. i hesitantly drove home from work, slept for four hours, then woke up at like 7ish and proceeded to toss my cookies for an hour straight. then went back to bed and watched percy jackson and the lightening theif...

i feel fine now.

why the face?

how to train your dragon.

the dragons in the movie act like kiki's. so naturally it made me cry.

oh kiki.

avetts in europe

bears II played just for me.

even tho i have to work in like 5 hours, it was still worth it to be there! pizza & on stage love.

<3 shstl.

oh ya quote of the night... referring to a tshirt... "that looks like super grim paisley, its sick!"

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

and becky yer comment is the most bitter thing i have ever read...........

dexter love.

sheldon!

i may be a geek, but i love this show.

i hate the girl, penny... she annoys me.... but i have a crush on sheldon.

http://statusserigraph.bigcartel.com/

a girl can dream right?

if a stranger decided to steal my phone.

they would be disturbed by the text conversations i have.

their music videos make me want to hate them... but the acoustic sets save them.

why am i still awake?

sorry, but i went back to the eastside tonight.

it was good though, cause i found out an important piece of information i totally was a jerk about... will gave me a shstl cd.... i immediately put it in my cd player to listen to it. and thats it. i completely FAILED to even look through the leaflet or even to the special thanks part. he wasnt happy i didnt notice he put me in there. i felt bad. bff<3

so it was good i went.

got off the ferry, went home, showered, made myself look like a girl, hit the show.
faedra and i went and got dicks and listened to shstl in my car... she was sober so it was nice. and we got to laugh at stupid bitches together.

it was a hard night to get through tho, shitty metal puts me to sleep so once shstl was on i was near dead.

but will was sweet and loved showing off the new posters and shouting out to me. and peoples reactions to them were soooooo good it made me really happy.

good times good night.

the first song they played.

this one is from the actual show!!

list #3

favorite disney characters female;

1. dory!

2. nala

3. eve

4. flower

5. mary poppins

6. boo

7. tink

8. wendy darling

9. minnie <3

10. megara

favorite disney characters male
1. mickey of course <3

2. goofy, gawrsh

3. troy bolton

4. walle

5. mater

6. mogley

7. ASLAN right?

8. jimney crickett

9. woody

10. jack sparrow

favorite disney songs
1. "mighty king" -- lion king

2. "little town" -- beauty & the beast

3. "beyond the sea" -- finding nemo

4. "part of your world" -- little mermaid

5. "colors of the wind" pocohantis

6. "when your the best of friends" -- fox & the hound

7. "ill make a man out of you" -- mulan

8. "friend like me" -- aladdin

9. "kiss the girl" -- little mermaid

10. "bet on it" -- HSM2

favorite disney villians
1. maleficent

2. zurg

3. scar

4. hades

5. jafar

6. darla

7. ursula

8. cruella devil

9. captain hook

10. cinderellas stepmother

favorite non animated disney movies (from 1960ish era)

1. bedknobs & broomsticks

2. mary poppins

3. chitty chitty bang bang

4. swiss family robinson

5. pollyanna

6. parent trap

7. escape to witch mountain

8. the incredible mr. limpet?

9. freaky friday

10. shaggy dog

list #2

top ten disney movies;

1. walle

2. brother bear w/ the commentary

3. emperors new groove

4. fox & the hound

5. beauty & the beast

6. nemo

7. aladdin

8. escape to witch mountain

9. high school musical!

10. peter pan.

top ten childrens books that WILL be passed to your children;

1. the daddy book

2. just go to bed by mercer mayer

3. just shopping with mom by mercer mayer

4. the monster at the end of this book by john stone

5. disney fantasyland storybook collection

6. just me and my puppy by mercer mayer

7. harold and the purple crayon by crockett johnson

8. are you my mother by p.d. eastman

9. richard scarry's busy busy town

10. where the wild things are by maurice sendak

top ten fave bands/artists;
1. avett brothers

2. bouncing souls

3. frightened rabbit

4. bright eyes

5. shstl

6. alkaline trio

7. damien rice

8. manchester orchestra

9. brand new

10. ingrid michaelson

top ten sing a longs:

1. summers gone -- aberfeldy

2. shame -- avett brothers

3. elephant love medley -- moulin rouge

4. little town -- beauty & the beast

5. i can feel a hot one -- manchester orchestra

6. i gotta feeling -- black eyed peas

7. hot n cold -- katy perry

8. true believers -- bouncing souls

9. mr right -- mickey avalon

10. i would do anything for love -- meatloaf

and yer fave five;

1. you

2. wibb

3. mal

4. jess

5. han

list #1

favorite actors:
1. morgan freeman

2. tom hanks

3. liam neeson

4. will ferrell

5. ewan mcgregor

6. heath ledger

7. shia labeouf

8. clint eastwood.

9. michael c. hall

10. kevin spacey

favorite actresses:
1. natalie portman

2. anne hatheway

3. ashley judd

4. meryl streep

5. goldie hawn

6. scarlett johansson

7. ellen degeneres

8. alexis bledel

9. lauren graham

10. tina fey

favorite movie lines:
1. "things'll turn out the way you want, if you could just stop doubting that i love you." -- science of sleep

2. "i wish you were still a washing machine!" -- semi pro

3. "screws fall out all the time, the world is an imperfect place." -- breakfast club

4. "for with each dawn, she found new hope that someday, her dreams of happiness would come true." -- cinderella

5. "absence makes the heart grow fonder... or forgetful." --peter pan

6. "the human torch was denied a bank loan" -- anchorman

7. "classic hospital" -- the hangover deleted scenes... :) and since this was not actually part of a movie here is another quote "look at that stick, it looks like a....stick" brother bear with the commentary :)

8. "cats dead!" -- post grad

9. "they may take our lives, but they may never take our freeedommmmm!" -- braveheart <3

10. "we named the dog indiana" -- indiana jones

dvd series you wish to own:

1. dexter

2. bones

3. nip/tuck

4. glee

5. community

6. house

7. dirrrrty jobs

8. jonas

9. how i met your mother

10. big bang theory

celebrity crushes:
1. john krazinski

2. paul rudd

3. hugh laurie

4. mike rowe

5. bradley cooper

6. scott avett <3

7. gerard butler

8. christian bale

9. david boreanaz

1o. justin timberlake

best shows ever attended:
1. avetts 09 @ the paramount

2. avetts 09 @ starbucks HQ

3. avetts 09 @ crystal ballroom night 1

4. avetts o9 @ crystal ballroom night 2

5. avetts 08 @ woodland park zoo

6. jack johnson 08 @ the gorge

7. bright eyes 07 @ paramount

8. bouncing souls halloween 06 @ slims

9. shstl 07 @ zombie lounge (turr surprise!)

10. avetts 07 @ bumbershoot

favorite names for kids:

girls

1. olivia

2. lily

3. sophie

4. madeline

5. hope

boys

1. finn

2. caleb

3. sawyer

4. judah

5. eli

the best friend a boy could ever have....

so, wibb got his valentine. but the circumstances in which he received said valentine are less than heroic. i have asked him up and down, left and right, pleaded and even threw out the "we are best friends we dont keep secrets" card out there and he hasnt budged on telling me how exactly he managed to infiltrate the post office on a sunday. he just looks at me with a little smirk and tells me "you would like to know."

but the thing is, i do know. i traded a cigarette for the information from carl... and well, he didnt do ANYTHING special to get it. it was forwarded to the old house.

but he wants me to think he did something out of this world crazy magical to get it.

LIES & DECEIT!

Eliah

after hardcore facebook stalking i figured out the dudes name from the surf shop in bham that jake cock blocked me with.

leave the rest at arms length, when they reach out don't touch them

ffffound.

art.

red rock amphitheater.

i want to see the avetts HERE in september.

must own!

bit torrentzzzzzzzz

ive spent yesterday and today downloading/watching movies....
thus far i have watched

valentines day.... didnt hate it.....

percy jackson and the olympians: the lightening thief.... it was really good....

and its complicated, hated it EXCEPT for when john krazinski gets stoned.... actually all the john krazinski parts were good.

i also have the lovely bones, brief interviews with hideous men, whip it, and where the wild things are downloading as i type.

this may be a new thing i do.

little known fact....

this guy was lancelots voice in shrek the 3rd.

my head is reeeeeeeling.

job hunting.

home missing.

baby shower avoiding.
frightened rabbit.... ing.
so much stuff in my head.
need to turn the damn thing OFF.

truth.

el oh vee eeeeeeee.

modern leper!

it was valentines day two and a half hours ago.

cupcakes. <--- yep that sums it up. whirlwind work day, we closed an hour early yay for me!

got a text from will asking for bff valentine hang time... so we did.
consisted of listening to NEW! shstl in mi carro for an hour. life completed.
sharing cupcakes of the literal sense.
hitting up the old casino for some game time. LOSING. :(
facebooking tuff.
getting called a bitch 10 times (we had a count going ... hes never done that before.)
and staying up till 2am, just me and wibb having a grand ol time.

i had a valentine this year :)

my two bff's are definitely better than anyone else's.

slowly but surely

ive been checking tickets for ellen every day, and its getting closer to when we want to go!!

wheres rob?

this could be done so much better, but its cute.

not even the hands of God can hold me back from you.

playlists for dayyyys.

remember the ridiculous amount of playlists we would send eachother?

this is what i listen to as of late.

already gone -- kelly clarkson
we're just friends -- wilco

hummingbird -- wilco

good arms vs bad arms -- frightened rabbit
heartless (kanye cover!) -- the fray

white winter hymnal -- fleet foxes
hallelujah -- justin timberlake & matt morris
go away -- matt morris
save you -- matthew perryman jones

samson -- regina spektor

take it back -- she & him

need you now -- lady antebellum
melody -- kate earl
hell no -- sondre lerche

i cant not have avetts....

incomplete & insecure
sanguine

i need a new job.

our tips went from 90 - front of house 10 - back of house to 60 - front of house 25 - back of house 15 - bakers. so i just lost 1/3 of my tips. so i am spending tonight applying to a few new prospects. i steering clear of barista and food service... and taking a new approach... more money, benefits, and paaaaaaaaaaaid vacation.

pray. pray. pray.

theyre just jealous.

fun fact

famous flower of manhattan..... is about regina spektor.

wheres my best friend?

we are being really bad at communicating. this whole using a blog thing isnt really cutting it for me anymore. and both of us being deathly ill probably isnt really helping our cause either.

i have this great fear of us falling out recently. the longer i live over here, and when visits are becoming fewer and farther between the more alone and disconnected i feel from you and my family. i didnt talk to my parents for over a week.... since i left sequim. i cling to the idea of our road trip even though financially its probably the most unrealistic thing i can really do right now. i used to find it hard wrapping my mind around not being friends with jake, because i always felt like no matter how much i disliked him he would always be around, because i would always be close with the family... but i am realizing how that may just be wishful thinking. our friendship ending is just the stake that is the start of the end. my spot at the dinner table will be eventually filled with husbands and wives...

i may just be paranoid cause i dont have much over here, and its really getting to me. its difficult to live only to work, and not being able to afford to go home as much as id like to. plus last night carl mention his, will, and jakes plan for will and karl to marry you and jess so you all are one big happy family.... and i felt soooo left out. like it will actually happen... but still.

youre my best friend. the only one that satisfies that position fully...

the travelocity gnome is in the shop getting his picture taken. ANOTHER celebrity.

make me sanguine, help me genuinely.
kill the doubt that strangles my self worth.
paint the picture that i swore i heard.

spiritless and mean, the ghost that comes between.
i will keep my wits about myself.
disregard directions sent from hell.

when it brings the gleam, longer lasting than me.

oh my love but we are bound to die...
my heart is broke but you wont hear me cry.
oh my love but we are bound to die...

my heart is broke but you wont see me.

i like her.

and you have to watch jay z at the end.... cause he is so happy.

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh.

free pizza, loaded with veggies from MOD.

grocery bag filled with day/night tylenol decongestant, english breakfast, and cough drops.
house reruns on channel 10.

i have had to work the last two ridiculously busy days while severely sick.... and the worst part of it was my damn gums are bugging the hell out of me. i was freaking out cause i normally love gum pain, but this was just getting annoying cause all i wanted is to dig something sharp in them to relieve the pain............ turns out its a sinus infection symptom.... who knew?

happy birthday auto-bot

its been exactly a year since i bought the damn thing. crazy weird.

i only know this cause i just did my taxes... and apparently if you bought a car in 2009 you get a deduction.... but only if you bought a car from feb 17th on.... WAY lame.

unfortunately my refund is lame and puny.... so we really gots to save beck. we can do it.... i just cant come to sequim all willy nilly.... and im cutting down on the fags................ and im just gonna stop eating all together..... i think thatll do it.

this line will permanently live on my body someday.

i baked a pie and painted a picture today.

SLF = scrabble love forever

i want to be my own roomate.... cause im a damn good one.

i want to learn to do this.

another one!

why dont we have one of THESE?

magical improv everywhere

its may day off... can you tell?

still. in spite of it all.

FML

neon museum.